Chaos.. I am, an extremely chaotic being. Many people, because of that, could see me as being something evil, being something bad, someone wanting to hurt other beings, spread chaos, spread dissolution.. I fear that someone fears and is avoiding me because of that.. well, that's a good thing at times, if there are people I don't like or want to be with etc. Chaos seems to have that kind of nature in many hearts, in many opinions and cultures around the world.. I have noticed that as well when reading of mythologies and cultures. I don't agree on that.. I write here to tell to those who may fear me because of that or think me as something I never was and I will never be if it depends on my heart. For me, chaos is neither good or bad. Chaos is chaos. chaos can be used in an evil way, as well as in a good way. Chaos in itself has not neither one, is something without defined nature of good or evil. Chaos can be used to evil or good. I am a chaotic being, but I never was evil. I will never be, I promise that from my heart and what I am, I would never hurt anyone with purpose, without a really good reason. I am chaotic good, I don't follow human laws but I have the principles of my own. I see in my mind, in my heart, what is good and what is not. I hereby tell you who don't know me, that I am the being of good in the deepest chamber of my heart. I am fierce, wicked, twisted, depending on my mood..I am chaotic. But I would to the last chance try to solve things without violence. I am a beast, child of nature, with a lust as wild as the nature itself. But I wouldn't hurt.. (unless someone wanted, and even then the reason should be good ah, talking about playing and so on..) I am the animal lover, I love nature and it's dwellers, as which I see myself as well. Everytime as I remember, when I have seen a dead animal on road, I have cried for him/her. And now as well, when I recall memories of seeing them.. my eyes got a bit wet.. Nature is one of the most important things in my life, for me. I am the one of chaos, but in my heart there dwells the goodness.

- Lord Belgera (written on 24.11.2004, at night)